Today I’m full of appreciation.
Grateful, positive, laughing.
Everywhere I look I see possibilities.
Tomorrow I might feel the same way.
I might feel even better!
But I might not.
Tomorrow I might feel inadequate, worthless, broken.
Unable to fulfill my vision of what a mother should be.
Weak from pretending.
I will be reminded that PPD is always looming.
Creeping around corners, behind doors, in shadows.
Weighing me down with self doubt.
Challenging me to find a reason to stand up.
And there is one.
I will reach through the thick wall of sadness and hold onto it.
She’s beautiful.
I didn’t know I could love someone so much.
I will keep fighting.
To keep surviving.
Leighann
This is absolutely beautiful. Keep reaching. Keep reaching.
you make me smile!
thanks for coming by and making me feel stronger today!
So honest, raw and real. I love it. Hang in there. You already know this, bit the fight is worth it!
Thank you.
I do know this.
BUT
I need a lot of reminders 🙂
Oh I love you. You captured the mindset of PPD so well. Took my breath away. Hold that little girl close to your heart every time you lose your footing. She will save you.
My son has saved and continues to save me everyday.
You’re a wonderful Momma.
AND I LOVE YOU!
you… the hugest support of PPD moms!
Thank you for everything you do.
Your writing, support, encouragement.
There is so much more!
SO SO much more!
I can’t begin to imagine the impact of ppd. I can only send hugs and say what a good job you’re doing in living and loving in spite of it.
Thank you.
You just stopping by and not downsizing the impact means so much.
Father, send peace where there is gloom. Present Your will among those who walk with broken legs. And heal the open wounds of sorrow. By the Name of Jesus, I pray.
By His Grace.
Thank you for this.
I have read it over and over.
It came at the perfect time.
Wow, that is so beautiful. I’ve had more down than up days recently and your words hit home!
I visited your blog.
I left you some words.
My heart goes out to you.
Sometimes it’s hard to keep reaching, but it’s always worth it. Just beautiful!
Thank you.
It is hard.
Thank God for blogs!
Lovely. Great use of the prompt. You keep reaching and hold on!
Thank you Yuliya.
I’m so flattered you thought it was Lovely.
Such a different approach, but I love it. It gives me an excellent sense of you.
I can’t wait to read yours!
Because… we are twitter soul mates! lol
You WILL keep fighting and you WILL survive it! Kick some PPD ass!
I like your positive “WILL DO” attitude!
Thank you Liz.
Great stuff. I know this feeling, although I find that one reason harder to grab on to sometimes. I wish I saw it as clearly as you do. Gah. That makes me want to cry just writing that.
Still, great post.
Thank you Robin.
Sometimes that feeling creeps over me too. Remembering my “old” life.
But then I can’t imagine life without her.
You have been a huge inspiration for my PPD writing!
Very well said. Keep being strong.
Stopping by from TRDC
Thank you. I will keep going. The writing makes me strong.
Patience and flexibility is the key to motherhood. Hang in there!
TRDC
I am attempting routine right now.
Flexibility is going to be tough.
you are absolutely right on! keep fighting!
And I will. Because you said so.
Jk
Thank you for reading.
Incredible post. I want to give you the biggest hug. Keep fighting! xoxo
I love hugs!!
Thank u
You did a good job of telling the story about yourself.
I’m glad you stopped by!
Yours blew me away!
I keep rereading this.
I’ve been there too.
Wish I could hug you, that we all could just fall into each other’s arms.
When I was in the middle of it, I found respite in a friend who was just recovering her life from PPD.
Just know that it does end, eventually.
And keep hanging in till then.
It sucks. That’s the truth.
Its nice to have support.
Thank you
I saw on twitter the other night you were a bit worried about your post…that concern was not needed! Great job on the post and fighting PPD.
You are full of sweetness!!
I adore you
So real. Great job!
I thank you
Beautifully done. Thank you for sharing such rawness. I hope it makes you stronger to write about PPD. I’ve never experienced it, but I have other pain in my life, so I understand how something like it can strip away your entire self. Sending you big hugs.
Amy. I visit your blog daily. I read of your pain. My heart goes out to you.
All my hugs to you.
Such a hard time to go through.. I wrote about PPD as well and, having experienced it and dealing with it yet again, I can totally relate to everything you said here. It’s so hard to know what each day will bring. Keep fighting!
I love you. Thank you for reading my post.
I admire your writing so much!!
For lack of a better word: AMEN!
You do it! You keep fighting! Keep being! Keep doing!
You also need to keep writing. Thank you for sharing. It’s an incredible burden, motherhood and emotions all swirled into one. You’ve done it justice by writing this.
Thank you.
Writing is my outlet. Where I let it all out.
Your comment is lovely.
hi! this totally captures what i feel from day to day. the emotions can be so draining. thanks for sharing!! =)
This fight is hard.
Stay strong.
This is such a beautiful piece! So well written. I have been struggling with similar issues lately, thanks for writing this.
I’m so sorry that you know this struggle.
I don’t wish it on anyone.
Stay strong.
Thank you for being genuine, real, and writing about the struggle. Good to meet you thru trdc!
Thank you for reading my words.
And then?
For commenting so nicely on them.
Though I haven’t experienced the pain of PPD, the struggle and fight is something that I do live with… loved this.
Tulpen.
Thank you.
We all have our struggles and things we are fighting.
I’m flattered you loved it.
Flattered.
Absolutely beautiful… the words and the baby!
Thank you. So kind.
Beautiful. You’re an awesome lady.
You just called me a “lady”
You crazy beotch!